Ok for fucks sake people
Stop being mean to Shane, he’s lovely and sweet and a panda and the next person to be mean to him will be attacked by me or Nella
Dear Anon
Do you know the way on facebook you can delete your page, or hide it I guess would be the better word, but you keep all your friends, and all the pictures and stuff? Is there a way of doing that with tumblr? Or is it a case of when it’s gone it’s gone? Because as much as I love this website (which is worrying because you’re not supposed to love a website) I need to get away from it for awhile, and saying that I just wont log in for a week or something wont work, because for the last few days I have been like I’m not going on tomorrow, I’ll take a brake, and well that doesn’t work….it’s like you dont even notice yourself going on, and spending your entire fucking day on here…..And it’s so much worse then facebook, because facebook’s shit, so it’s easy to get pissed off with it and just leave again, but here is different and that annoys me.
To that Anon,
Whoever the fuck you are, I am the type of person who nobody and I mean absolutely nobody would abuse. I’m not saying I’m hard or whatever because i’m really really not. Like you have no idea, I have never been in a fight in my life that wasn’t on a Rugby pitch. Simply because I have never had the need. Yeah I was bullied in primary school, really really badly which for better or worse (probably worse) is the reason I am who I am now…..But the thing is, i’ve done really really shitty things in my life, i’m not going to say what i’m about to say about you without making that perfectly clear. I have cheated, I have hurt people, I have stolen….just about anything shitty you can think of….i’ve most likely done it. The things I have done even though most of them are way, way in the past effect the way people look at me now, people in real life obviously, effects the relationships I am able to make in a bigger way then you can possibly realise. To the extent where I am seriously prepared to move away from my family (the one constant thing in my life) to either Cork or Scotland next year to keep going with my education….so I can start new, where i’m not being followed by this name, this annoying mostly untrue idea people have of me……But you know at the end of the day, who I am now….Really isnt that bad? I mean there are things I would change about myself obviously…and I hate the way I look….obviously, but seriously for the most part I think I’m a nice enough guy…… (and here we go) There is something deeply deeply flawed with the type of person who can come on here, go to the ask box of anyone’s blog, not just mine and type whatever the fuck they want…and then glide on over to the anon button and press it, I would be able to handle abuse if I knew who you were? And I could rip your fucking head off with a reply, but it’s the fact that you need to press that button that really really pisses me off. It doesn’t just piss me off it disgusts me to be honest. The thing about this website…..something that I have come to appreciate more and more since I started using it, is that the majority of people here are alike in so many ways, that each one of us is scared in our own little private ways, that even that most attractive people feel like shit sometimes, or in some cases all the time…..So anon what’s your story? What makes you think you have the right to go onto peoples blogs….not just mine…you went onto Aislings too (sullydahlion) and left absolutely random abuse on that too…..you know…I don’t even know her apart from on here….seriously if she walked past me in the street I probably wouldn’t have a fucking clue who she was, but it still annoys me that you can go from my blog…..to her blog…and abuse her? because if I don’t know her…and I talk to her….then chances are you REALLY don’t know her? Like can you actually imagine walking up to someone in the street and abusing them like that? You would die? :L But yeah, who knows….You might be being bullied and this is your way of dealing? You might be pissed off because I don’t talk to you?…And I’m not going to say I dont give a fuck either way, because I do care….I don’t know why I do, but I do want to know what’s wrong with you…. I want to know what gives you the right to come on to my blog and abuse me for absolutely no reason??
I made my tumblr, when I was trying to sort shit out after suicide attempt number 2…(whooooh) And it worked. More then anything else I had tried before to be honest. There were people on here that were in the same boat that I was in. People who then likely I will still be friends with in 20 years time. And I have always liked the way this website is like a secret place away from everyone in real life, away from all my friends and my family…..it’s just like….what’s the point anymore?
Thanks Anon.
